homesick

Thursday, December 1, 2016

I never expected to write a blog like this, but here I am. Behind the computer writing a blog about being homesick. It's not that I am homesick in a very strong way but I just miss home more than I did. It just was my little brother's sixteenth birthday, in two weeks it's my twenty-first birthday, Christmas is coming and luckily after these days my mom, grandma and little brother are coming to New York City. I can't wait to show them the most amazing city ever.

It's not like I want to go home. Please, no. Sometimes I just get distracted in classes because I miss home. It's okay, I knew it would come someday and somewhere I knew it would come around this time of year.

It's so weird to see friends back home doing fun things together. Snapchat is full of stories where I think, I want to be with you guys. On the other side, I think they think the same thing. They really want to spend their time in New York. I am so lucky to have this change. Maybe I am not homesick, but just missing home. I met the most incredible people here with whom I spend my time. Because of them it feels like a second home. I said this already a hundred times but it really feels like this.

I see so many people eating alone and I really feel sorry for them. Sometimes I want to get my stuff and sit next to someone who is alone, but it would be weird. I have the thoughts of doing it, but I would never do it. Here at EF New York there are so many students and I really don't get why all these people sit alone.

But being alone doesn't mean someone is lonely. Even though I have my friends here, sometimes I feel alone. It's like being with a huge group where someone makes a joke and you are the only person who doesn't laugh about it. Okay, maybe that sounds weird. I don't know how to explain it another way. I think that feeling is the best description of how I feel sometimes. The feeling always changes very fast, luckily.  It's very normal to miss your family and friends if you are away for a long time. I am happy that I still can enjoy my time here even though I miss my family and friends a little more than before.

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